oct 23, my birthday

i am who i am today because of my of the support and strength i have received on this journey from my family, friends and spiritual advisers.

deep unwavering companionship, no matter what, from my husband and the love of my best women friends,(those willing to help me hide the bodies.)

i am inspired to grow and look within, knowing the way is lite from an unmeasured unalterable source of goodness and life. ,spirit called me many moons ago. ,i was still running topless on the reservation, browned by the prairie sun and unbridled from the life that was to come. ,even at 3 or 4, i often looked around, for i heard my name on the wind. ,it has never abandoned me even thou the road was winding and mysterious at times.

when i finally had enough of life’s addictions, there was a liberty–a state of freedom that propelled me to seek this familiar haunting call of the inspired utterances i heard in the quiet and i began to hear within.

i began to make ready and prepare for the promise of a life that could be unburdened by my own mind.

there is an old Cree story of a woman who runs howling into the world because she is chasing all her dogs who have run off in all directions.  my work with old women from many Indian nations soon enough dinned the chaos and disorder that had ran my life.  forced into the sweatlodge was, at the time, a test.  but out of the darkness, searing heat and pain came honesty, truth, and a teachable reliable woman of today.

yes there is still turmoil, and at times the sea of life is turbulent, but the rituals and traditional ceremonies have allowed me to soothe and nurture my own soul.  in the composure and stillness i can cancel or delete old tapes.

like a fox i can follow the trail back to the source and see the fear from which it began.  today i am candor but refined, powerful and kind.

i meditate and pray daily, for it is in those moments that spirit speaks to me.  the voice is reassuring and i am a listener, hearing again, voices of the old ones and things yet to come.  sometimes there is prophecy and i am filled with inspired thoughts that are often a source of my writing.  there is always a landscape of adequate ease and well being.

this is how it is on this day, the day of my birth, and for this i bow my head in gratitude.

O great father, power of the four directions and all that has life

i came to you an earthly child.  now with white in my hair and the grace of age, i still come to you, for here is the comfort of the world.  here is the peace and the stillness that heals and soothes my soul.

my faithful companions walk with me and together we use the white feather of love, and the smudge bowl that wafts the smoke of peace in all directions.

thank you for the strength and courage that i have found in the love of this universal greatness. i am strong with this gift of life; this guidance that is unwavering.

be with us all who today celebrate in joy our walk upon the earth.

all my relations

morningstar woman